Interclass games and JEP

Well, I'm back everyone!!

Well, sadly for the interclass games, we lost all 6 matches but it isn't really a major problem. There are time where we lose, even so, my class will still not benefit much for winning. Interclass games are suppose to be for sportmanship and participating.

Even if I feel a little defeated, I had fun playing sports and I know that my class did our best. We didn't even practised much anyway. Furthermore, we had free milo as a token and my classmates were all smiling (most of them). So, I do not regret or blame anyone for it.
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As for JEP, it was exhausting. I felt that my legs were about to collapse and I was tired with explaining and resetting the games. Moreover, I have a difficulty of communicating with younger children. They were shy, optimistic and hesitant. At least my group earned 1226 coupons which made my group members overjoyed. Finally, JEP is over. Well, I hope that our class wins

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The other thing is the graduation day dance. Well, my classmates and I are going to perform. Thanks to my innovative friends, our dance looks great. Well, at least we completed the dancesteps and we are going to practise. Wish us luck!!

After PSLE

Finally, PSLE's over. People say that the papers were easy, but I would never underestimate test papers.





Anyway, what's done is done, I cannot change the past.



After PSLE, I am basically focusing on my JEP. I am content of the group I have because everyone are capable thus, contributes a lot to our project.



To be honest, this project might be quite stressful, but, I am able to benefit knowledge that a normal education would have ever taught. However, problems are still arising, endlessly. If you had noticed, some of my close friends are now distant. Well, I'll be fine since I can be independant. I am able to make new friends and I still have my best friend anyway.

On the other hand, I am still figuring which secondary school I want to got to. It all depends on my PSLE score, right? Well, I had already chose 20 schools which I think is promising. I looked at the PSLE rages and I categorised it, so that I would alrady have 6 schools to choose when I get my score.

Of all the 20 schools, they are in the red line (not further than Choa Chu Kang and Orchard), have some CCAs that I am interested in and some even had affliated JC schools. Well, as far as I'm concern, my mother wants me to go to a Catholic school so that I can be more religious. Perhaps there are a lot of influences when it comes to high school. I am aware of that. Of course, I'll never lose my sanity or jeopardise my life.

As a pessimist, I would really like to plan every year so that everything runs smoothly. After all, goals can never be achieved unless one dreams of it, right?

Firstly, whatever PSLE marks I get and whichever school I go to, it doesn't really matter. Yes, there will be disadvantages and advantages depending on the secondary school I go to. However, it really depends on the individual itself.

Therefore, the environment of my studying school would not affect me. I'll just be concentrating on my goals. I had always dream of being the top even if it is difficult. Gradually, I will do well in my studies because if my studies would drop, it is really hard to get back up again. In fact, it takes time. For me, my studies did drop drastically when I was in Primary 3. It took me 3 years to resume back again. I'll just try to level up my standards.

I am quite excited that we are having more subjects, especially English Literature. I really liked reading Romeo and Juliet. It teaches me about poetry (I love reading classics). There will be also 3 subjects of Science, which I think will be great.

I am not really sure about Mother Tongue and 3rd Languages but I'll be able to cope with it. I heard that there are some schools that has 3rd languages for them, but I prefer European langauges. If it is really compulsory, perhaps I'll take Spanish since I find it easy to speak and the language is quite similar to Tagalog.

I hope that Maths will be more understanding and I wish to excel in it. There is geography and history. I think it'll be interesting but these new subjects seems to be tough. I do not really know the difficulty level of these subjects but as long as I have patience, I'll be able to cope with it.

Thirdly, it is my CCA. I am planning to get back on music but I still had a nightmare during my last music CCA. I was in the symphonic band and its a killer. We had to practise 4h a week and the teacher did not give any constructive criticisms. I as really young at that time and it seems that everyone was out to get me. However, I was able to cope with it because of my love for music. Hearing classic music can be soothing. You can move along with the rhythm and your heart can feel with the singing melody. It seemed that your soul was lost in the song.

Instead of getting back at performing arts, perhaps I'll take sports. Anyway, as long as the CCA was enjoying for me, it won't be a huge problem.

Lastly, it is the people around me. I absolutely despise betrayal and lies. in fact, I'd rather have 1 true friend than having many fake friends. I hate hypocrates who appears to adore you but talks behind your back. I also detest people who uses individuals to get what they desire, for example, fame. Even if being a friend with someone who is considered "cool" and you'll become "cool" too, it is not worth it.

I had always regard coolness like an ice. Being cool can be nice, everyone appears to love you, have a good reputation and be the most popular student in the school. However, it will melt soon. People will neglect you and say "You're so last year" while walking way.

Perhaps it is a waste of time being cool. Some people are naturally cool, which is, people regard them as "cool" without even having the intention. But some, they have to be so mean, insensitive and other imprudent things in order to be extraordinary.

To me, it's a piece of junk. The most thing that makes people "cool" is getting other's attention by telling some jokes. Well, I believe that the purpose of having a good sense of humour is to make your love ones laugh.

Another thing is, they are people who wears those masks. I would like to say is to tear it and show you real character to everyone. Be truthful and humble. Not everyone will like you but those who are faithful and loyal to you will accept you. Don't you think it'll be better?

Friendship is not always about hanging out, spending the good times together, being cool or gossiping. It is about the love for the people who are not your kinsman. It is about sharing the bad times together, lending an ear to listen to their problem and a shoulder to cry on.

That is one of the reason why I find it difficult to make friends because I'm not just looking for a friend but a real one. I seriously prefer someone who is ordinary but kind and concern to other than a cool and insensitive person.

And whenever someone lies or talks behind my back, I'll never trust them again. Even if they apologise, I forgive them. But, is their apology sincere of my feelings? Or is it just because karma turned against you? That is why my trust to others are always broken. Unless they change for the better.


Anyway, I am concentrated on the JEP project right now. I hope that my class wins.

about PSLE

Well, I was really anxoius during the LC exam. At first, my hands were perspiring profusely, thus, I asked the invidualator for some tissue paper to wipe my hands. Well, it was easier than expected, I thought I was going to fail the LC espcially MT. As for English there was one or two tricky questions but I managed to choose the most appropriate answer.



I would want to tell everyone that there is still hope and please do not give up. There is still several days before the written paper, do your best and believe in yourself!!!! >.<



Other than that, I wish that no one is disheartened by their results of the Pre-PSLE. I hope everyone will get their goals at the end of the year....

(Sorry if this is not the quality of reflection, I'm in a hurry... I apologize if my reflection is very shallow...)

Teacher's day celebration

Just a simple message: -I enjoyed my day during the teacher's day celebration....

(Too exhausted to elaborate)

Prelims and PSLE Oral Exam

Well, it has been 2 weeks or so since I had updated this blog of mine. To be honest, those days were the worst I have experienced. I was utterly restless.

-Prelims
I despise my prelim marks. It was unbelievable. I never expected it to be so challenging, especially for Science and English, which was suppose to be my best 2 subjects. However, this time, I failed to achieve my goals. Feeling disappointed, I secretly shedded tears. As tears trickled down my face at my most disheartening moment, I knew it was foolish to cry over a spilt milk. Life still goes on, in all circumstances.

In life, we do fall but that does not mean that we should give up instantly. Though giving up is easier, it is morally wrong and estupido. If you choose to give up on yourself and your life, then there is nothing you could do but attempt suicide. Therefore, stand up whenever you fall, for there are still obstacles you must conquer.

As for now, I know that there is still hope, a chance that I could prove to myself of the things I had learnt. Getting straight A's is difficult for me, but I am tired of getting these low marks that I'm receiving, now. If your reading this Mdm Yeo, I beg of you to have faith in all of us, that we still have greater potential yet to unleash. As much as we desire to achieve our goals, believe and encourage us.

To all my friends, if your satisfactory are not there yet, keep your faith. Bear with a few more weeks, it'll soon be over.

-PSLE Oral
For a low self-esteem individual like me, I felt really nervous. Multiple times that I reminded myself that it is just another exam. I was overwhelmed by the anxiousness in my heart that my hands were perspiring and shaking.

There are no comments or remarks about this, for I am uncertain whether I had done well. Though it was over, it is unreasonable to relax as PSLE is just the beginning.

Other than that, I would want to ask you, my dear blog readers: What is the biggest mistake that you have done in your life??

It seems to be a simple question, but to think again, it is rather a broad question. I'll tell you my opinion in my next post.

Farewell for now.

This week, it was less ordinary except for Friday. The day we went to Sembawang Park. The reason behind this was because we have to celebrate National day. Though the blood of a Singaporean is not within me, this is where I am sheltered. I met friends here that made me smile everyday.

When we got to our destination, we set up a picnic on the fresh light-emeral grass. We ate the afterwards, played some exciting games. Time was short but it seemed to last forever. Smiles and laughter was on my classmates' faces. It made me cherish those moments.

Throughout my life, I was never good at this outings. I used to enjoy this outings. Well, that was when innocence was within me. However, people change throughout the years. I was completely different. I never had time for those outing that people say that they enjoyed going too. And if I were to have an outing, I wouldn't enjoy much. It'll be a waste of time and drab.

However, today, I was proven wrong. Perhaps I was with my friends. That is why I enjoyed myself during this outing. I hope that we will have this kind of outing with my classmates again. As I had only a few memories that I cherished. While the rest, haunts me.

This day, my doubts and worries were erased on my mind temporarily. So to my classmates: I appreciated you guys for making me smile. Also, good luck for your Prelims and PSLE. All the best!!

Too tired of studying to live

Throughout the year, I'm so stressed. It's like I just study to live.... It's because I really want to get sraight A's for exams which I never had before...

Today, I was sent home early because I was having a serious headache. At first, I didn't really want to tell a teacher because I thought that I could bare with it for the whole day. But I couldn't, it was really painful and I might faint any moment. So after half a day, I couldn't withstand about the aching pain in my mind that I told Mdm Yeo. Right now, I had a good rest and I feel better.

Actually, I want to revise Science by drawing concept maps but quite a number of my friends said "no". They said "Stop torturing yourself, today, sleep like a pig. RELAX!!!"

At first, I was doubtful. I seriously wanted not to waste precious time any longer and revise. To tell you the truth, I am beginning to love studying. I may be reluctant studying at first, but once I sat on my chair, nothing could stop me from studying.

I actually don't have any tuitions except for Chinese. So my mother just bought assesment books for me to rely on. In fact, I find the books she had bought me are really useful. Though nobody tells me to do any assesment books, I would make a to-do-list and a timetable.

As for Monday, I would revise Chinese; Tuesdays: English; Wednesdays: Math; Thursdays: Science. And as for Fridays: Relax, do homework, extra study etc. Saturdays: Chinese Tuition and Music School. Sundays: (Random)

So that's my aim. Of course I wouldn't want to be a nerd and just stay at my desk revising, I'm concious about health too. I try to spare some time for taking a walk and all that. But I don't think that I could keep up with PSLE. I mean, I never had straight A's before. I'm skeptical that I would be able to get straight A's. I'm so worried...

So, I think that's the main reason I had a headache. But after drinking milk tea and taking a nap, I'm fine. I actually wanted to to revise but I could that my brain is heavy whenever I focuse into some school stuff.

I do wonder, how come some students are so relaxed (not revising at all) and still get straight A's?? Oh I feel like killing them!!! I mean, how do they even do that??? I feel like interrogating them...

Anyway, my younger sister is the opposite of me. She doesn't really revise much and she relaxed... She was actually the one who stopped me from revising Science just now and I did listened to her. *Maybe I'll revise Science tomorrow*

Geez, I'm so stubborn... People told me to relax but I'm like : "I NEED PEACE, JUST LEAVE MY BOOKS AND ME ALONE!!" *LOLZ*

But they're right, I do need to relax sometimes or I'll be suffering from headache again. Not only that, also backpain and lack of concentration. So guys (or girls), don't be like me, RELAX!!

*Note that I'm sooooo not a nerd!!! I just want to sacrifice for this crucial year because I know that this whole bloody war would be over after PSLE. The first thing I'm going to do is: CHEER. "PSLE IS OVER!!YAY!!"

Anyway, if I were to get straight A's in PSLE, I swear that I would do any dare that my friends would ask me. (Just don't tell me to jump off the building or anything like that)

Other than that, do you notice that today's post wasn't so emo and mature??

(Wait, so my post is a little crazy, maybe I'll go back to my own style:)
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(Original syle)

As the days past, I grew more restless than ever, like a lost soul with an unfinished buisness on Earth. I even had a painstaking headache in the morning of school. At first, I wanted to bear with it for a moment but soon, I couldn't withstand the pain in my mind. I felt as if my brain was as the weigh of an elephant. I feared that my vision would become blur and fade into the darkness. Or even worse, faint.

Realizing the fact that I was being oblivious to my health, I simply knew the reason. The desire of having straight A's printed on my PSLE results. The vision that I had been imagining ever since the beginning of this whole crucial year. I never had such marks written on my exam results, never.

But though I never had those marks, it doesn't mean the never means "never for enterinity". This is present for heaven's sake. Nobody knows the future, it depends on every individuals of our decisions. So be carefull of your decision as it might determine the future, like a domino effect. Once a domino standing had fallen, the other one next to it will fall and the other, till the very last one. So choose descision with caution, as they might alter the future.

Sometimes, our futures intertwine with one another, that would make a huge difference: Meeting someone which was a stranger, then knowing one another. That's fate.

I just had to sacrifice something in order to achieve what I desire as it would never come twice. There are times I wonder, how do other people manage to get straight A's without studying at all?? That bothers me so much.

I was actually stubborn enough and wanted to revise Science. But thanks to my sister, she ceased me from doing so...

Instead, I took a nap and drank some milk tea in order to stay "alive". The though of PSLE is hard for me to get rid of it, endlessly worrying about it.

But I know that one day, this whole bloody war would be over. And I'll survive this. I swear under my breath that if I would get straight A's for my PSLE results, I would take any dare that my friends would ask me, unless their asking me to commit suicide.
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A/N: So, which version do you like better? The first or second one?? Please tell me your opinions!!!

While typing my thoughts out, looking out my window, it's raining. I wouldn't say that its a peaceful one, but rather strong and brutal one. As uncountable droplets of rain falls to the greyish clouds, yellowish lighting strikes everywhere, but never at the same place twice. And most of all, the thunder which yells out after yellow strikes as the darkened clouds cry.

Though the innocence hates the rain, I appreciate it. Rain could really tell us how we feel. Commonly, humans walk slowly in the rain without anything shelter them. That's surrow. The greyish tells it all. There are times which I would walk slowly in the rain, without an umbrella to keep me dry. Although it makes us ill, its the moments I treasure.

People would walk and appreciate it. You may wonder, but I won't. Because long I had known the reason. It's because of the feeling called 'surrow'. When one has bitter smiles on their faces, drops of water would pour on them. Its cold but accompanies them, willing to ask thee to share thy greyish moments that a few or none is willing to.

Other than that, people would dance in it. Ironically, they would dance happilly. That's weird but that's art. nature is really beautiful and its beauty is only visible to those who appreciate it.

Whenever I feel surrow or loneliness, I would like to look at the background, seeing the trees as they are blown by the graceful winds. It's drab but its seems to understand you. You can never prevent emotions, not even I who detest it. There are time when I feel down, I would look at someone whom I really care about. And I'll just smile, a true smile. The innocent faces of an innocent child would reassure you that everything will be fine. Countless times I experienced that.

This reminds me of the crucial year I'm having. Never have I experienced it before. The biggest obstacle I'm currently facing: PSLE.

I never had straight A's before, I could only visusalize. No, its too farfetch for me to even dream it. But its the risk I have to take summoning all my moral courage.

I had studying a lot lately, that I have no time to watch Detective Conan or watch any other television shows. It's alright. Time is the most valuable thing that any man could spend. Time isn't on my side right now, because time is like a tide; it just comes and goes - it never waits for anyone. Yet, its valuable. That's memories with someone. Cherish them, for they will not come twice.

Anyway, there's one fear I am concern about. What if my hardwork is futile? I had studying and all, but, does it really determine my marks? I wonder....

1st week of Term 3....

I began to feel the importance of education as time passes. Time is really short and the Prelims will be here soon, then PSLE. I am really anxious about this, but I believe that it wouldn't be the hardest thing that I would ever be going through.

In life there are lots of challenges and PSLE is my very first real challenge. Despite the agony I have been through, I would still keep moving forward. I may not be a "genius" but along the road of my six years of education, I had learnt a lot. It isn't always about how fast you had accomplished an obstacle, it is how you accomplish it. Throughout these years, I was able to learn things that I will treasure the most. I may not be able to get the highest now, but I will someday. The things I learnt in school will be useful to me as I grew up.

No one is really a genius, everyone of us are taught by others. To learn something one's cup must be empty so that tea could be poured in.

Other than academics, I was able to strenghten my soul through experiences. These experiences are always memorable to me. So that I would be able to handle it when it comes back.
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This week, I have been sheding tears lately and I hated it. Emotions are normal to us, but they are weakness in my eyes. Emotions are reasons why one murders another, one envies another, one cries out for someone. That's why there are lots of jealousy, hatred and sadness lingering in the darkness till now. Emotions are one of human's weakness. It is also the reason why one hates another, one who gives up on their dreams or one hides in the darkness.

To me, I live in fear. I would not tend to show these fears to others, rather to just show it to myself. Fears are the things which would get in my way all the time. These fears are not really being afraid of monster, spiders, insects or ghosts.

But I fear of having fear. I am not a daring person who can be able to achieve something that is almost impossible. I am not daring to stand up for something that would risk my dignity. I fear of the darkness. I fear that no one really cares for me, that someday, everyone would just walk away from me. I fear betrayal. I fear almost everything.

Maybe that's why I would stay alone in my room, living in the shadows, fearing about something. I would sometimes look in the mirror and ask myself "Who really is that girl looking at me?? Is that who I really am??"

I don't even know myself anymore. You can call me a "coward". But to tell you what, we all have fears. I may lack moral courage, but there people do not really understand the true meaning of courage and fearless.

Fearless is NOT about having no fears. Its about being fearful but you conquer your fears anyway. If you are able to overcome your greatest fear, you are fearless. A person who claims that they have no fears are not fearless. They are cowards. They do not want to admit the truth.

As for courage, though that it is similar meaning to fearless. It is not. There are two types of courage; moral and physical. In life, physical courage is very common while moral courage is so rare. Physical courage is about being able to kill something, being daring to do something that are others don't do.

But moral courage is having the courage to stand up for something. To be able to have a moral courage, is to confess the truth. *truth*~ is something which is significant to me. Being able to have moral courage could be confessing your crime, love for someone, apologising etc. That's moral courage. But it is difficualt to have that, don't you agree.

You must not consider your dignity, yourself, risk of being humiliated or the consequences. It takes a lot of courage to be able to confess the truth to someone even if you know it might hurt them. What matters is that you have courage and having honesty at the same time.

I may be fearful but to be honest, I am SICK of people thinking that I'm an imbecile, SICK of fearing something, SICK of hiding it. I may lack of courage, but I MUST be able to have moral courage and conquer my fears so that I wouldn't be fearing in the darkness. Because I'm tired of living like this. It may take a lot of time to have courage, but it is the risk I'm taking.

If you have been reading this Mdm Yeo, I would like to thank you for teaching me this.

I would really want to spill this truth to all my schoolmates ~ is that sometimes, I admire and envy your innocence. It's just that all of you are able to smile the whole time, filled with happiness and optimism, something that I didn't have. You are able to see the brighter and beautiful side of this world despite all the shadows crowding around you.

As for me, I find it hard to be oblivious to those things. I just can't ignore them. With you, my friends, though I may not know how many of you would betray or walk away from me, thanks for sharing the jokes and happiness with me. I really appreciated it.

The innocence of a childish person may be something I hate the most, but it is also the thing that reminds me that there is still hope for me and others. Though I may hate the smiles and laughter that children have, it makes me think that there's light, though it may be small, there's hope. And for that, I would appreciate it.

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Study Camp

At first, I thought the workshop would be boring. But it turns out to be great. The trainers have a lot of humour as well as teaching us valuable life lessons that will remain in our life.

I had always feel that I'm tired of living. There are times I would feel that way. But somehow, there are times where I'm inspired by someone or something. It somehow tells me not to give up no matter what. There are times where we feel that we give up whenever we fall. But somehow, it's our choice to stand up and fight.

To be honest, I find it hard to be even truthful to myself. I don't really know who I am anymore. I have a pessimistic side of myself. A voice that always say that I can't make it. And the worst part is, there are times where I'm foolish enough I listen to it.

But now, I'm inspired. Giving up may be the easiest thing to do but it is also the greatest failure in life. Like I said before, obstacles are always there to stop you along the way when you fight to reach your goal.

Therefore, life will never be perfect. But yet, these obstacles made our souls stronger. It may be hard to reach the goal but we must achieve in order for our vision, dream that we imagine before we sleep would come true.

I may not come from the top class but I'll do my best.

The last session was actually very meaningful. To be honest it made all of us cried. We do have problems in life. But we can't blame, complain and give idiotic exuces just because we can't have a perfect life. There is always someone who is worse than you. You just don't know or haven't met this person yet. For things to change around you, first, change yourself. The things happening around you is determined by us. So don't complain.

There are times where we hated someone. There's nothing we could do sometimes. We can't change that person, but we can always change ourselves, either positive or negative. Every single one of us are selfish. We have to appreciate and apologise to the people whom we had hurt before. We would always think of ourselves first.I know it's hard to consider someone else first but we have to be selfless. Being selfish is considered a sin. Even if it's minor.

Moreover, one of the trainers taught us about honesty. For me, the TRUTH is very meaningful to me. Being a realistic person, there is only one truth. But sometimes, the truth are unbelievable. But we have to accept it sometimes rather than believing lies which make you happy. You'll be a fool. I would always accept the truth no matter what. Though some truth are hurtful, at least you know the truth. Only a fool would want to be surrounded by some lies. I can't accept to live filled with lies around me.

Actually, I really want to be honest with whoever you are reading my blog right now. There are times where other people are open to everyone. For me, I do wear a "mask". I was quite surprised that one of the trainers talked about that. As if they could see the real you. I must say that this person had gone through tough times.

The truth is, I do wear a "mask". In school, I'm happy with lots of smiles and laughter. But that is just a fake smile. Whenever I'm alone, I think quite a lot. I can't really sleep just because I think so much. Not about academics, but life itself. Whenever I reflect thing like that, I feel very weak and depressed. I hated it when I show myself crying in front of someone. I just hated it whenever I would show my true side to someone. I'd rather be alone when I cry.

You may think that I have lots of friends. But to face the truth, I don't really trust lots of them. I fear that they might betray me. I fear that they are fair-weather friends.

Speaking of that, the trainer said something really meaningful that every one of us cried. And I hated it. I couldn't believe that someone I had just known for less than a day would be able to reveal my true side.

At the end of the day, I felt weak as usual. I couldn't believe that I cried and everyone saw me.

Well, that's it.

June holidays....

It's now the June Holidays yet, I'm so bored. This is actually the first time I wanted to go back to school again....



The truth is, none of my friends came to my house to hang out with me. I guess their just busy then or didn't bother at all. I didn't even went outside or shop around in a mall. There was only once where my mother and my younger sister went with me to the mall to watch "Prince of Persia" and that's it. While the rest of the holiday, I had been sitting on my chair, staring at the computer.



Isn't my life so drab? I had been staying at home like the whole holiday. On the bright side, I can spend my time alone again. I like spending time alone on the computer, it makes time pass rather than being with some people who can't understand you.



Other than that, I spent my time doing homework and studying. You could say that my holiday is boring, which I would agree. But I'd rather be alone rather than spending time with someone whom I don't really trust.



Other than that, my best friend calls me to talk to me. To be honest, we chat for at least an hour.



Mostly, we would talk about trust. In fact, the more I live, the less people I could trust. It's just that, I fear of being betrayed. I know that not much people are aware of that. But as for me, I fear of being betrated, there is only one peer whom I really trust. As for the rest, I don't know.



There are some friends around me, but how many are true friends? It's just that I find it hard whenever I talk about my problems to others. Many people don't see this. Despite that some of my peers are trustworthy, I don't really feel that I could share my deepest thoughts with.



You may say it is weird but that is the truth. Being betrayed by someone is not just being angry and then planning to take revenge on the traitor, but being decieved by someone you trust. Betrayal is like taking care of a white tiger.



Let me tell you a story:

There was once a young girl who took an injured white tiger cub which she found in the forest while strolling around the woods. She took pity of the white tiger, so, she took it home and nursed its wound. The cub soon became friends with her and she decided to keep him as a pet.



As time passed, they spent their time together and the girl was jubilant. She took good caer of him too and the wound soon healed. Soon enough, the white tigher cub grew into a large cat.



Then one day, just one day, he stabbed her in the back, his blade-like claw pierced her heart. The girl's wound was so deep that she bled non-stop. "Why?" the girl asked with her blue watery eyes looking into the white tiger's cold eyes.

The tiger just left. Soon, the girl arrived at the hospital. Fortunately for her, she survived. Though the wound was healed, there would always be a scar that remains, which would remind her of that fateful day.

Well, this is a story that I just made up by myself about betrayal. People would just pretend to be your friend and act like they care about you. But in reality, they are just using you. Like the white tiger just needs someone to look after them. But one day, just one day, when you gave them everything they wanted, they won't appreciate it. They would just backstab you and leave you with nothing but betrayal.

Know whom you really trust.

Growing up... and my opinion on exams

When I was little, I was childish and innocence. In fact, there was nothing much I care about when I was younger. I seriously hated it, being whiny, no care for the world and believes in Fairy tales and perfection. I totally regretted for acting like that especially when I was only 7.

But now, I had totally changed.

People sometimes change over the years. Everyone must wake up and see the world around them. Over the years, obstacles mostly effects my character. Education especially this year made me serious about almost everything.

In my opinion, obstacles helps a soul to be strengthened. Without, obstacles in my life, I probably would have never changed. As a student, we must not only get good grades for our academics but our charcter too. People mistaken that a good student has to have good grades, but a good student have good character.

It is not always about the amount of number you see on the test paper, but the amount of seriousness and effort in it. You don't have to top the class, all you have to do is work hard to achieve your goals and improve on it.

Exams made me more serious about work even though I do not top the class. As long as I achieved my target for a certain subject and improved on it, then I knew that I did well.

About my new group again....

Well, I did some reflection and I think that my new group is going to be ok. Actually, Jun Kiat and Mathan are alright actually. Mostly, I would like a group whom I get along with:

In the old group : Kai Lin, Jun Kiat , Marven and Adrian

In the new group: Luqman, Jun Kiat , Bryan , Li Jun and Mathan

Groups made us get to know people more and work with them and get along . This year, I had made a lot of friends.

Anyways, I am fine with anyone.

My exam results....

-English-
I got an A! My overall results is 81.25 for English! Yay! I am overjoyed as I improved and I never expected to get 76.5 in my Paper 2.

I thought that I would get about 50+ for paper 2 like in Practise Papers but I did not! That ios what I call worthwhile after doing some Practise Papers. It really helps me to improve my English.

-Maths-
I scored real low for Maths. It was REALLY TOUGH!!!! Well, I realized that my Maths are deproving. I need the time for June holidays to catch up.

-Chinese Language-
I finally passed my Paper 2!!! There might be a chance for me to pass my overall marks.

-Science-
I had achieved an A even though I could have done better.

About my new and old group members.....

Mdm Yeo had change our groups and she told us that she regroup as for a reason.







My Old Group (Group F): Me, Kai Lin , Jun Kiat , Adrian and Marven







My New Group (Group B): Me, Li Jun , Jun Kiat, Mathan , Bryan and Luqman







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My New group:







I was quite happy to have Li Jun as a member of my new group since both of us get along and she is a good friend. She has been my good friend since last year. She is good in Maths and Chinese, way better than me.







As for Jun Kiat and Mathan, I know that both of them are good friends to each other. They do annoy me almost everyday and Jun Kiat is still in my group. Mathan is in my Oral Group as well. With both of them, I can predict that Li Jun and I will get annoyed by the two of them. Oh why do I have to be in the same group as them?? T_T"







As for Bryan, I had never talked to him before. So I guess being the same group as him would get to know him better. I actually heard that he likes to sing. ( I do not know if that's true)







Luqman is good in English judging by the marks in English SA1. He jokes a lot and would bring laughter to our group.







Well, I am okay with my group despite that Mathan and Jun Kiat. Actually, Jun Kiat told me he is quite unhappy that the fact that Li Jun and I are going to be in the same group as him and Mathan. I actually had a bad feeling we would not get along well.







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My Old Group:







Jun Kiat has potential leadership qualities. He does not abuse the role of being the leader of the group. In fact, he is quite humble and he passes up homework and forms on time. The only thing is that he annoys me.







As for Kai Lin, the only girl in the group besides me, we get along pretty well and I got to know her more compared to last year. She is very good in her subjects and the most I could talk to in the group.





Adrian is the one who talks quite a lot in our group and the one who annoys Kai Lin.



As for Marven, well, even though he doesn't really passes up homework on time, our group will not be complete without him. (I don't really know him much, except that he could run very fast, that's all)


Well, our group may not be that perfect (the boys annoys me quite much), I had no major problems in my group. In fact, I had actually enjoyed the whole semester with my group and I had gotten to know them well.
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In life, people walk in and out in your life. You enjoy working with your group members but sometimes, you don't. Your group may not be the most succesful, but as long as the effort and synergy is there.

Having groups in your team helps you to know your group members.

Exam week

It was a very stressful week. Finally, I had managed to overcome it.

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-Science-



I got a low A for my Science exam. An A, but still dissapointing.



The truth is, I never had time to check my Science paper throughly, especially Booklet A. It was such a waste.



Never mind about it, no matter how regretful I am, nothing would happen. At least I had gotten an A would be enough.



It is just that I was so busy preparing, studying for the Science topics. I even stayed up late just to cover all the topics completely. However, life is full of surprises, some are pleasant some are just not. That what just happened. I was so busy focusing on that but not time management.



However , I am not going to cry over this. It's like crying over spilt milk. What's done is done, I cannot change anything else like what most people do. They complain. I do not know why but most people would complain every single imperfect thing in their life. They blame on others, why not blame themselves?



I blame myself for not doing well in my Science Exam but that does not mean it's the end of the world. There is still things that are far more difficult challenges for me to overcome. Besides, there is still English, Maths and Mother Tounge. So, build a bridge and get over it, unless you want to drown with regret and blame. -Remee



Maybe, no, I WILL get a high A for my PSLE Science Exam.

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-English-





It was fine, I think. However, I would mostly get 50 over 95 for my English. I hope I would get more than that. Mostly, I would get 50 for my Practise Paper English but it seems to be improving.



I had 49 for Paper 3 but I scored 70 when I did it the second time. I was able to score a 75 for one of the recent papers and 69 on the other. I was so jubilant that my English marks were improving. I think that since English is not a subject with new topics, we should keep practising Practise Papers, Oral Exam , Continuous Writing and Situational Writing.



I just really wanted my English to be 65+ or else, doing all these Practise Papers would be futile.



The word "futile" is what I fear about. Things just don't go the same way as what you expected. There would always be unpredictable twists in life. When it comes to exams, studying very hard, doing revision, then when it comes to exams, you'll get low marks and sometimes, it would be so dissapointing because the marks are not worthwhile, and the last thing thing you will think about is : "I had been working very hard but then every effort I had put in was futile." or "What could I have done then?"



I just wanted something worthwhile for my English. Now, I am anxiously waiting for the results.



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- Maths-



It was SO TOUGH. Paper 1 was so easy but then Paper 2 was so TOUGH. I did not know most of the questions. I did not even want to look at the questions ever again. I was racking my brains to get the answers and I knew that at least 20 marks would just fly. I did not even get to finish the paper properly.

I am skeptical that I would get an A for this, maybe I would get a C. Until now, I do not know why many people love Maths. People say that it is "easy" and "no-need-to-memorise-anything" subject.

Unlike me, I would rather memorise the whole concepts and apply it to my exam papers than using my brain to answer a question correctly. Maths is something like that. You work out the sums and you get it correctly. I do not like answering Maths questions. It's not that I detest it, just that my brain just aches when there is a difficuly Maths question. Seriously, I do cry when I just don't get the questions. What would happen during PSLE Maths? Would there be such challenging questions?

Judging by the number of difficult questions, my schoolmate's compliments about the paper and my thoughts, I am prepared if I would get really low marks for this. My marks are simply predictable.

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Great, it's my weakest subject of all. If I was not given extra time, I would not be able to finish the paper. I could still remember clearly while I was doing the paper, my hands were sweating, I do not know what I was writing.

I actually had failed this paper multiple times. It is rare for me to pass this paper. Unlike my Chinese schoolmates, I do not really answer the questions straight away. I need time to translate the Chinese words to English or Tagalog then to Chinese again in my thoughts to understand.

I was really anxious that time. I do not really understand the two passagesin Booklet B.

The first one was about mice but then a cat came and thus they held a meeting and one of the mouse suggested to put a bell on the cat so that they would know if the cat is coming but then none of them has the courage to put the bell on the cat. (I think that was the story)

The second one was about how special the role of our parents in our life. It tells us about our parents going through hardships. (I think so)

So if I was 100% wong about these passage, then I would completely fail. I was quite glad that my Chinese teacher taught us how to do well in Composition, Oral Exam, Listening Compre and Paper 2. She told the whole class that most of us did well for the components. She even told me that so far, I have been doing well for the component marks, not really a high mark but roughly the passing mark. Therefore, even a pass in my Paper 2, I would be satisfied as that is my achievement.

I know that a passing mark is just a passing mark, but to me, I had reached my goal. It is my main goal after roughly 5 years. If I would pass, I would jump for joy and sing "hallejuah" .

I remember that the sweetest victory is when you achieve something after all the hard work. Therefore, passing this paper would be the sweetest victory. It isn't really sweet when you would always get high marks.

Sometimes, imperfect things makes our lives great. If a person had never made a mistake before, that person had never tried anything new. We learn from our mistakes and refrain from doing it again. That's how our character strenghtens. If your life is such luxurious and perfect, then you can't face such hardships when your life is a wreck. When that time comes, you'll be the weakest.

Obstacles may make our lives challenging but it also taught us how to have a strong, good character along the way. Having a blissful life when you're born makes you have an ugly character, such as "spoilt brats". Having a life with challenges makes your life interesting and your strength is stronger than "spoilt brats", not physically, but mentally and emotionally.

So, don't complain if your life is a wreck. Once you had finished a challenge, another one will come to you life, sooner or later. As a student, obstacles to me are my exams, especially PSLE. Sometimes, obstacles may not be accomplished the first try, if the first attempt fails, try again. If the next attempt fails, try again. Again and again till you get it.

Once you had, then you'll feel good about it. Then you wait for another one. That's how you overcome your obstacles in your life because perfection does not exist.

Moreover, it isn't always what you achieve in challenges, it is how you overcome it. So, if I would get a pass for my PSLE Chinese Paper, then I know that I had achieved my goal, how I overcame it and I will be waiting for the next.

Right now, I am waiting for my results and see how far I am at.
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Actually, I am not as smart as my schoolmates. I truly admire their ability of getting the understading the concepts and getting it right consecutively. But for me, I have to work hard before I would get such high marks.

Most of my classmates have confidence that their PSLE marks would be high. I'm not. I am very pessimistic when it comes to exams. I am skeptical that my grades would be high. But that is how I get myself to work hard for my exams.

If I would be so confident about my marks, then I am not facing reality. Creating a target and achieving it are very different. People confuse this too much. Target is about visualizing you achievement before conquering your obstacles. Achievement is about achieving your goal.

Most people would dream when creating their tragets such as getting 100%. I don't. creating a target must be real, but high and achieving. What I meant by high isn't always about getting an A*. Each people have their own views and points. A "C" to someone might be very low but to others, it is already high. Targets must not be over the achievement because the more you target for something very high, the more dissapointing you are.

In my view, a high A for my best subject, A's for my two average subject and a passing mark for my weakest subject. Having fear, being pessimistic and skeptical abotu your exams isn't always that bad. It makes you work hard towards your goal rather than being optimistic and over-confident. You'll only achieve dissapointment.

So, make sure that your target is not beyond reality. Set your target, overcome the obstacle, achieve your goal, feel the victory, let go of it and wait for the next one.

Earth day

So this week, we commemorated earth day. The presentation was well done and I was impressed. However, just as my teacher noticed, not many pupils were well-engaged.

Our class seemed to be well participated and the spirit is there. "Yay!" for our class!

I liked the pictures of true nature. To me, originality is the most beautiful and unique. I am skeptical that I am able to see the beauty of nature in reality. Is the world beautiful with nature? Actually, nature is way beautiful than the modern ones. (shopping mall etc.)

The most beautiful things is not just physically but also emotionally. There is a great difference between beautiful and pretty. In my opinion, "Pretty" is just described a modern girl with tonnes of make-up on or modern buildings with high technology. While "beautiful" describes a person with natural appearance or nature. In other words, when something or someone is described as "beautiful" means natural and not only that, but also describes the art inside it and it is not just the physically but what is felt inside.

I would really want to see the true beauty of nature, seeing the top view of mountains, the sapphire-coloured ocean, the blood-red sunset or the forest that almost looks like emerald, the 7 colours of a rainbow, or even as simple as a dewdrop in a leaf of a plant which sparkled like diamonds.

To me, the colours of nature is breath-taking. I would describe those colours like the colours of jewels. However, I may not see them because of what we are all doing. Wouldn't you want to see it too? But it is all too late, all we could see are black ashes, brownish mud and the blood and dead body of animals and nothing else.

Tell me, have you ever seen a walrus? A tiger? A lion which the fur is as white as snow? A panda? A plant which has flowers that is a shape of a pink-parrot?

Wouldn't you want to see those rear animals and plants? I have not seen those yet or maybe never.

To be honest, we are standing in nature's way. It's very common to see selfishness around the world. People uses feelings of others to get what they want, sinned people living in luxury, justice and truth are covered with lies, betrayal and hatred.

Like I said, nature gave us everything we need : shelter, food, water, air. Some people are not blessed with these things. But what about you? We already have everything we need, but we destroy our beautiful planet just to get what we want.

Building a house that is bigger than needed, while you could use the plot of land for a flat for a home to hundreds of people. Instead, some use that plot of land to build a magnificent mansion just for themselves. It is cool but selfish.

We would always consider ourselves before others, right? Why not make it another way round? Starting with animals and nature. Humans are gifted, the most intelligent living thing on earth. Why could we use this intelligent to lead the world with good and selflessness, where evil does not exist. Instead of ruling the world where bad things linger around.

So that we could see the nature as a beauty to appreciate, not a trash where we are disgusted. The most treasured and happiest, beautiful moments are not the biggest things, but the little things that makes life great.

By playing a part in Earth Day, we have a chance to see the beauty of nature. I thank all the people, though done a little job, makes a difference. (whether you have had read this or not, but I thank all people from the bottom of my heart.)

Inter-national friendship day

As on the title, the school is commemorating inter-national friendship day. It is significant especially in Singapore because Singapore is a multi-racial country.

I am a student from another country, therefore I am in a different race. However, I am friends with Singaporeans. To me, friendship is a great value in life. That is the only thing that keeps me from being a social person.

It is strange that only when there are disasters, people would unite but when there is peace, it is totally different. I think that disasters are nature and it also helps to unite us all. We come together when there are disasters and help the country that is affected.

Also, people always judge other's negative points or difference. They never knew that how the difference could also be similarity when looked in another view. It is like a cube. You focused on the crack on one side so seriously, that you do not even know that the other 5 sides are the same. Yet, all six sides are the part of the cube.

2-3 week of Term 2

So it starting of term 2 and there is so much homework! I am about to collapse from all these. I can't even watch my favourite anime! Anyway, SA1 is coming up so I won't be really surprise.

So far, my English Oral reading is alright. I have been practising on it and it is actually, oh well, alright.

Also, I actually caught a high fever during the long weekends, good friday to easter sunday. The cause was eating chocolates and therefore sore troat which led to fever. I was like "mute" for two days or so.

Honestly, the last time I ate ice-cream was like a few years ago. hehe.....
Now, I vow that I would not eat chocolates no matter how I love eating them. My voice is very important to me. I can't imagine how I could lead my life without talking.

Nowadays, I prefer milk tea instead of milo.

It's weird how I got sick on Good Friday and recovered on Easter Sunday...
If you do not know what i meant by the sentence above, don't bother..... :)

It's funny how you lost something and you realized how important to you and the consequences for it. We must always treasure what we already have and do not trash it away, you will never know how important it is to you.

School is school, but I love going to school because this is the only place where we can meet our friends.

First week of Term 2

Gosh, it's all Term 2 but my teachers are giving us a lot of homework. Only for one reason - Exams. Ironically, I will not complain. I actually understand that this is for my own good. To my teachers who are reading this, I promise to myself, my parents and to my teachers that I will put in a lot of effort to my studies especially in PSLE. I will do it no matter how much homework or tuition I have and how less my freedom is. As they always say, taste bitter before sweet or hardwork first then freedom. I will just do whatever I want on June Holidays if I'm satisfied with my SA1 results. Oh and yes, why am I typing this while I could spend my time studying? Answer: This is for homework. Every weekend, I must update my journal or get scolding.
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On the brighter side of school, I just had the best Friday ever! I really like Fridays. Fridays are the best days of each week for the whole entire of my life. Why? The reason is that Mondays to Thursdays are always the days where I have to do homework due tomorrow. On Saturdays, I have tuition and other corricular lesson. But they are fum anyway. On Sundays, I have to do my homework. On Fridays, I have PE and I can do whatever I want after school because I can do my homework and revision on Sundays. Ironically, I hate Sundays. I do not know the reason why.

Back to the topic on the Best Friday I've ever had, I actually perform by singing The Climb. I think that many people liked my performance. I appreciate their graciousness. I sang the climb because the song describes the meaning of Perserverance. (Especially for PSLE). Anyway, at the beginning I was nervous but I remembered some people saying 'treat the audience like potato' or 'treat them like a wall'. So, I just told myself that 'sing like no one's listening'. I managed to pull the performance fine.

Some of my friends who are choir members wanted for me to join Choir. Since I do not have a CCA, why not? During the performance, I just carried on and at the end, many clapped to my performance. I really appreciate it.

After that, some of my friends started shooking me and telling how well my performance was. I thought that my performance was bad but many liked it. It was really an honour for me to be able to share the stage.

One of my friends ask, "When will you sing again?" I just shrugged my shoulders. Nervousness is one of my fears and I'm glad that I just overcame it. It is really hard to overcame my fears but I feel really relieved that I was able to overcome it.

As I said, that was one of my best Fridays ever.

Last week of Term 1

I want to say Thank You.....

I really appreciate because this term is fantastic! I really met some good friends and not just from my form class, but also in some other P6 classes.



In my form class, there were a few individuals that are really funny, they can crack up jokes. This made me laugh. Many people think that I do not usually laugh except that I am with my friends. I would always want to have a serious face. Also, I am not good at telling jokes, people would always think I am being sarcastic or I am serious. Was my personality being too serious because I have always detest childish acts? To think of it, I have always get annoyed when one' s childish. It is just too annoying for me, the fact that some are always so whiny and immature. Some students in 5 courage last year, I am able to be more close to them. While some are really good friends.



In other classes, I met some friends too. They are really caring.



To my teachers this year, the lesson were never boring. Plus, I am able to learn new things. Whether it would be in Science or English taught by Mdm Yeo. Or my Chinese class or my Maths class taught by Mdm Sng or other subjects. Grouping me to other students helps me to have more teamwork and contribution.

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Other than that, I managed to get an A in Science! I was jumping for joy! ^.^

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This first term really let me know that this year is going to be challenging yet great.

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(side stories)

I would like to talk about friendship and honesty. I have a friend whom I had known since the year 2008. She was not really a good friend because she was never honest. She would always make up stories relevant to my problems and this confuses me. I trusted her and yet she deceived me.

I would like to tell everyone that if you are really a true friend, you would always tell your friend the truth no matter painful it is because the more you keep it, and they found out, they are less chances that they will forgive you. To me, the truth is significant throughout every individual's life. The truth is always one hidden with many lies. Even though the truth may be painful, the one blinded with lies must know. Or else, if it is too late to tell them, it would seem like a lie.

Friendship could also be tested in different ways and there would sometimes conflicts. The conflicts might be for some misunderstanding. Well, to be a good friend, you must be selfless. Not just telling them jokes, but to be a good listener when they have problems. You might not be able to solve them but the most important thing is to at least listen.

9th week of school

Ok, first thing I want to shout: YAY!!!!!!!!!

Note: Whoever is reading my blog right now, I can get emotional and you will think it feels weird but this is the only way I can express it out without words and please do not ever

mention this in the real world (i meant like talking to me and saying "hey I read your blog" *Sounds weird right?*

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Class test is over, so this is the time I am typing on my blog again.



This week was so stressful.



Monday, it was Mother Tongue class test. My brains were RACKED! Mother Tongue was my weakest subject and I was REALLY hoping that I could pass this exam or else I'll be so disappointed in myself! I had put in a lot of effort to pass this exam, just pass this exam and I will really be happy. Sadly, on Friday, I did NOT pass!!!!!!! I fail by 5 marks! Meaning that I only have 40 out of 90! Also, what really pisses me off was my classmate(not telling who), was being arrogant that he had high marks and he even told me that if I took the Higher Chinese I would fail more. Instead of saying that, he could just say "better luck next time". I really hate it when people heard that someone scored a low score and instead of making them feel better, they will say things that will make things worse! I know that I am skeptical of passing my Chinese. Thankfully, some of my classmates could understand my situation and they help me feel better. "A good friend and a true one should first understand and care for their friend and that would make you one." - Remee Rose
I actually made that quote by myself. To understand one's problems is about to put yourself in their shoes.

Back to my point, I knew that I would do bad but thanks to my friends, they made me feel that there would always be a next time that I am able to score high for my Chinese. And I will make that dream come true.


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Tuesday, it was English class test and it was HARD! I always get 50-70 out of 95 for English, I can't believe it! Talking about shame and disappointment on my face! But we shall see. To me, I am a complete idiot at English, I've always be so blur in grammar and vocabulary. To me, in English, is about understanding deep English like Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet. Much to say more like literature.

I think that SEL is basically about literature as there needs to be an understanding about some words like perseverance, what is the true meaning of it? Talking about SEL, our group won 50 points because we had presented the best explanation of perseverance. To be honest, our presentation, we actually refer ed it to a song. The song is The Climb by Miley Cyrus. Mdm Yeo, if you are reading this right now, I would just want you to know that this is the song I want to sing in the bus bay.



The song is really meaningful and it is more like explanation the real meaning of perseverance. Right now, I'm reading Sherlock Holmes and it is quite hard to read because the author wrote it in like the 19th century so, the English is very deep. But I try my best to understand it and I admit that the cases were brilliant. I heard from my mother that Shakesphere's Romeo and Juliet is very hard to read that you will be annoyed. I feel like reading that book. ^.^

I only scored 60.5 out of 95. That's lame. That was only a B. I do not know the reason why I just could not get high marks like Challenge does. To be honest, I am not really outstanding in academics, so, I would try the harder way. Besides being acadmically outstanding, character is also important.
Many people would want to be arrogant just because that their marks are outstanding, but their character is pathetic. To me, being smart is not everything. It is the effort, perseverance and pride you put in your work. Also, having good grades would not make you a 100% genius. You are only about 90% . You need character especially in leadership and desicions, as well as understanding. If you do not understand then you would not be able to do things well.
I would like to congratulate my friends who scored very high for class test.

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Wednesday was Maths. To be honest, I feel like cursing under my breath because of Paper 1 that only has 50 minutes to complete the whole paper. I was like OH NO, I have insufficient time to do paper 1! So, Paper 2 , I need to get a high mark for that..........



Honestly, I feel like breaking down and cry. I feel guilty for some unknown reason. I do not even have the mood to smile. But I would take in as a lesson. We all have to learn from mistakes. Nobody's perfect. There is only one thing we are perfect at. And that 'one thing' we are perfect at is because we practise it. A person who is perfect had never tried anything new or learnt any lesson. (Am I being way too literal here?)

Those are just my thoughts. Just as I predicted, I only had a B. Again. I am sick of this and yet it made me want to study more. But I feel so happy for several of my classmates that scored a good mark. It made me smile. But yet, it was a bitter smile. I smiled for them because they are happy, even though I was disappointed.
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Science, I do not have enough time to check my work due to insufficient time management. But I feel satisfied. For some unknown reason, Science is the only subject that I felt I belong to. I would always learn something each time I took Science. I am really a logical person. I would always know the good things and cruel things in this world.

So, as I was saying, I would not feel as bad as the other subjects. I got 50 out of 60 for booklet A. Even though I would not get an A*, I just want an A and I will be satisfied.
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Side Stories:
This may not be relevant to school, but it is relevant for life.

I listened to this song, "Innocence" by Avril Lavigne. And I had to agree with the lyrics of the song. Many people would like pop songs but I like slow songs that have meaningful lyrics in it. Or else, there would be no meaning. A song is like a poem with a rhythm that tells a story. A song tells a story through music.

So, Innocence has two meanings:
1) A person who is innocent
2) A lack experience of the world and the evil things in it.

I would assume that it was the second meaning. Most of my schoolmates are innocence. They are not really aware of the evil things that life has and carries on with a happy smile having happy moments. I can't help but smile.

I do not know whether I am insane but, I do understand problems and conflicts despite my age. I should be innocence like my friends. But it also came handy whenever my friend has problems. Whoever is reading this, I have a tip if you have problems:
Talk to a true friend who is understanding and not innocence. They would understand your problems better.

Many people would try to find their true happiness or the meaning of it. To my point of view, if you have everything, you would feel like you have nothing. But when you have nothing and yet, you feel that you have everything you need.

What I really meant that if you are wealthy but sick and alone. You do not have happiness in you. You feel that you would give up your fortune just for some little things. The "little things" in life makes life great. Those "little things" are family members, true friends, health and most of all, happiness. Even if you are not wealthy, but have these "little things" , you feel satisfied with it. The happiness your heart is feeling is beautiful that makes you want to cry.

You see? Even unperfect things made your life so happy. If you have bad moments, just think of the little things you have in your life and you will think that you are lucky and you do not need fortune or any other things that looks nescesarry to makes you satisfied but in the end, when you sulk about not getting these things, think about the things you have and treasure them. You will smile about it. The things you have must be treasured. After your thought, you will think that the things you do not have are unnescessary to you as you already have everything. And that is true happiness.

Sometimes, I would like to wish that I was innocence; not knowing about cruel things. Many of my classmates could not read my reactions displayed on my face. I do not know the reasons why. They would always ask me "Why do you look so sad?" or "Why do you look so glum?" or "Why do you look so pissed?". I do appreciate their concern. But that was my normal face. That was because I'm not smiling! That's all..........

Anyways, since I scored really low, I asked my mother to sign me up for tuition classes.

7th week of school

It was already Wednesday when we started the 7th week of school. We really have to practise our skit.



I really have to apologise to 6Challenge for not attending the skit due to Prefect reccess duty. I really want to see them perform and my schoolmate told me all about the skit and if I had seen it, I garantee that it is nice.

Friday was the time we had the skit in the hall in front of some P6 pupils. Well, my group did not have the opportunity to perform our skit. But I was happy to my classmates who perform their skits nicely. I guess that the audience laughed at some of the jokes.

6th week of school

It is going to be Class Test soon! We had this skit about total defense and we are doing Military defence. At first I thought that our skit was LAME but then it was actually fine. But we need developement.

Also, my classmates are excited because there would be Chinese New Year holiday too. Even I'm excited. One of my classmate, Chelsy Neoh invited me to her CNY party. I had been to a Hari Raya Open House before but not Chinese New year party.

Speaking of that, Singapore is a multi-race country and even though we have diffrent race, we still are friends. This is also Social defense. Social defense is being friendly to your schoolmates and neighbours. If not, there would be a riot in Singapore. We must live in peace. This week, I've learnt a lot about defenses thanks to the skit.

5th Week of School

Firstly, I would like to thank my teachers for understanding us by giving us less homework. I really appreciate it! :)



Secondly, I am writing this journal on the 6th week of school due to some problems in the interenet, in other words, I've forgotten what happened at the 5th week of school.... :( I really have a bad memory! *Luckily I am not forgetful enough to forget my homework or maybe even my name!* *Joking*



Ok.....Ok... I remember! There was this somewhat play but ours is just err... ... short. Really short. Then there was this erm....



"Gah!" I'm forgetting things! But I do remember my homework and what I've learnt in school like in Math class, Fractions, Nets, Angles and algebra. While in English is just Worksheets practising our English Language. In MT we had spelling and covered up Chapter 2 and half-way through Chapter 3. Oh, and in Science we finished the whole book! Yay! I finally remembered! ^.^.....



What else? I'm thinking..... (While listening to One Time by Justin Bieber :) ]



*Thinking... * *Thinking*.....



Oh and in PE, we finally learnt about Badminton and next week (which is this week) we are going to learn more about Basketball! Basketball is my favourite sport, I like to watch it in television or in a game and my uncles loved to play basketball so, I am starting to like it too.



And in Friday, there was a huge downpour and I have to run under it! I was wet, no, soaked. But it was sooooo cool! I'd never ran in a huge downpour.



*Flashback to Friday afternoon on a huge downpour*

I was in Gate A but there is no one to fetch me home and I did not bring an umbrella! No choice, I ran out of the school and ran towards the bus stop. The feeling of running under the heavy rain is so fresh and wet but it eased out your anger or the bad days you had which in some terms "cools you down".After that, I went to a few blocks and went home. When I came home, I was soaking wet! That I have to take a bath so that I will not fall sick.

*End of Flashback to Friday afternoon on a huge downpour*



Writing this journal seemed like having to recover an amnesia for me. Luckily I do not forget to do my homework because I write it down in my Pupil's Companion. What I am trying to say is Responsibilty. Showing your responsible is simply doing things like haniding in your work on time , not forgetting to do things or even revise your work.

Fourth Week of School

-Monday 25 Jan 2010-
Honestly, today I am PISSED. Maths class was smooth until MT class. When my chinese teacher pronounced my English name wrongly, the black sheep in the class laughed and the others laughed too. That was an embarrasing moment and I hate to be embarrassed. I just keep quiet but my heart was filled with embarrassment, hatred, surrow and anger. Its funny how most people express the anger in them but if you don't, its like your heart is is being stabbed by a dagger. Luckily, my chinese teacher told them to keep quiet because it's not funny and you don't know whther it's a British pronounciation or American.

During recess, I have to do duty and it is in the parade square. Together with Jasmine Oh, we have to warn people not to run in some forbidden areas and not to stand on one area. But some people are just so stubborn. There was one boy who ran and fell then got injured on the knee. His so called friends were just around him and blaming each other while he was moaning in pain. So I asked another prefect to get a teacher while I stand and look after. While the other prefect was gone, the injured boy's friend yelled at me "OI! GET LOST YOU IDIOT! YOU CAN'T EVEN SAY CHINESE! HOKKIEN?" I know that student was one of the most oblivious pupil in the school. (Not saying his name) In my mind was ' what a hooligan! And so what if I'm not Singaporean and I could not speak Chinese well? At least my true friends accept me for who I am and no matter how hard Mother Tounge is, I will still try to do my best. Not like him who is a useless bum getting into troubles. I mentally cursed him in my mind. Well, when the other prefect on duty got back and told me that there is no teacher nearby, so I just told him to bring him to the General Office and I'll just resume my duty and help Jasmine Oh.

Since I'm already P6, I mostly dislike people who are 12 and still are childish. I would like to encourage everyone to try their best to pass so that they will not bring their parents headache. So, people who are very rude and what I meant totaly no manners, please stop. There was this quote , which is I had forgott.en but the meaning if you want people to treat you nicely, you must be nice to them.

Well, I hope that typing to my blog calms me down.



Tuesday - Thursday (26 Jan 2010 - 28 Jan 2010)

Three days where my Maths teacher and Form, English and Science Teacher (Mdm Sng and Mdm Yeo) was not in school for some reasons. The class there was different. Somewhat really different and I'm not used to it even though I could have read a book during my free time after I finish my tasks given to me and there is not much homework.



Luckily, something cheered me up during assembly. There was this show about crime prevention and the puppets were hilarious especially the chicken and I also guessed that his name is KFC. The jokes were funny and it really cracks me up.

-Friday (29 Jan 2010)-
Mdm Yeo came back today. Well, things today were as usual. Sometimes I would like things to be simple and ordinary but sometimes, it doesn't have to be always that way. There will be events would might be a once-in-a-lifetime chance.

The Third Week of School

*sigh* 3rd week of school, the time goes REAL FAST!~



-Monday to Wednesday (18 Jan 2010 - 20 Jan 2010) -

Well, Mdm Lim told us about three things.

1) Punctuality

2)Road Safety

3)Why English is SO important

4) About the national anthem



*PUNCTUALITY*

Very simple. Do NOT be late for school. Wake up early, it's your responsibility, not your maid or parents or even your alarm clock. Wake up early, eat your breakfast, tidy yourself up and come to school. When I was primary 2, I had a problem coming to school early because my little sister eats her lunch SLOWLY. So, I have to wait for her to finsh her lunch then come to school. Also when I was Primary 3, my house was far from my school. I have to take the bus then MRT train and bus again. But now, my house is near from my school.



*ROAD SAFETY*

Most people would like to disobey the road safety rules and just dash across the rod due to hurrying. But we must use overhead bridge if there is one. Some people would cross the road even though the red man is on.



*Why English is so important*

Even though I am disliking the subject English because it is hard, I would still appreciate it. english is the language that connects the world to communicate. In many countries, they have their own language and many do not learn English. We use English to communicate to each other rather than learning a lot of languages. When I first came to Singapore, I had a difficult time speaking in English and understanding what they say. Also, I was confused why was the spelling (cen-ter) centre? While the English I have learn in my country is spelt as center? It is because in Sinagpore, they learn British English not American English (That's what I think).



*About national anthem*

Honestly, I am NOT so sure about this but I heard Mdm Lim talking about when you heard the pledge or the national anthem, we must stop and sing it too.



The rest is all about Homework and stuff.......



-Thursday (21 Jan 2010)-

We were actually had a talk about Graciousness. How to have manners and respect others.





Most people would say things to others that might hurt other's feelings (e.g. bad words, insults,yelling and lying) People should respect others by simply talking to them gently.



Most people would late out their anger and hate when they get angry to a person and cause them to hit the person. People would hit the person to express their anger and hate to them or even throw a tanthrum.



Of course, very less people would want to wear a 'mask' and hide their real emotions and be calm like they are emotionally numb. I had tried it before and it was HARD. Having to hold your tears, be calm when someone insults or irratates you, unable to smile when someone tell you jokes and having an expressionless face or 'poker face'.



I understand it is hard to be calm when someone is insulting you and you are hurt verbally that you would physically hurt that person. But you have to be calm and ignore that person. Tell yourslef that : "He/She is just jealouss of you" or "That person just wanted someone to notice him/her"



I believe that each class would have a 'black sheep' and comment about things sarcastically. To me, they just wanted to be noticed, that's all. So, if you have a black sheep in your class and insults you, just ignore them. Because if you do scold them or insult them back, you are just getting what they wanted and they would insult you more.



If you are a person who is trying to be a bully and mess up people's lives by insulting them, you have to STOP. Who knows if the person you are messing up with have a 'darker side' and curses you and you will be DOOMED. Trust me, the best way is to just stop, I would be worried if someone physically hurts you or making you like a puppet via "voodoo doll'. So, just STOP. And is you think you're being funny well you are NOT. Honestly, I totaly HATE black sheeps in my class.



Another thing is to be well-mannered. I remember that my Grandmother is very strict on that. Whenever she comes from Japan to visit us, she would mostly talk about "Please", "Thank you" , "Sorry" and "Your welcome"



Most young teenagers would lose their manners and care. Like my sibling, she would just say "I don't care" or sometimes "don't know don't care". That would piss me off. Even a few days ago, I was lining up in the stall when a few boys were pushing about until one boy pushes his friend strongly and the student hit my stomach. I groaned in pain. All they could do is just blame each other like: "He do it lor!" "No lah, he did it" I was PISSED. In my mind was, why could they just say "sorry" and that would be enough. My face was a serious poker face and I told them "Instead of blaming each other for your mistakes could you just say sorry!?!" Then they were immature and said "Sorry lor! You think what?" I decided not to bother about them anymore but they are so immature and impolite. Also, I detest Singlish. I would sometimes talk improper English to my friends (but without the lor, lah or even seah) because I would to be more myself like my friends but not in a rude way.

Graciousness would also mean RESPECT. Some people would like to vandalise properties like flats, playgrounds, school propeties and sometimes even buses. This is a sign of disrespecting your country, home or school. Tell you what, vandalising is NOT COOL. Especially when you vandalise in a wall with bad words and little children could see it especially in playgrounds.

Also, you must give your seat up in bus or MRT to a person who needs it more than you. Most people would just pretend to read a newspaper or sleep when they see someone older or children. That is such a shame!

Mind your language too. Don't use vulgarities to scold anyone.

There is a lot more gracious acts that we could think of.

- Friday (22 Jan 20101) -
There was a structured programme. Homeworks and lessons. Mdm Sng taught us the third chapter, Nets in Maths. In MT, we had also finished Chapter 2. In Science, I had learnt more about energy. (etc. potential energy and kinetic energy)

Second week of school

Second week of school was DIFFERENT from the first week of school. Nothing was really new and there was homework as usual and my subject lessons are finshing their first topic.

-English-
We did oral practise for our oral exam in the future and the article Hope is a Choice. I learnt something about Hope is a Choice and really learnt a LOT from that topic. We also did some composition and honestly, I admit that mine was LAME. Idid not have the enough time to finsh the essay and did not have time to check through. I need to write faster next time. The rest were some research.

-Maths-
I had maths worsheets as homework and we had finished the first topic, Algebra. I have to practise Algebra more so that next time I won't make any more mistakes for the topic. We learnt the next topic then.

-Mother Tounge-
Just like Maths, we had finshed the first topic and moving on to the next one. We did the activity book and try to learn the new words. Even though Mother toung is my WORST subject and I do not speak Chinese, I try to understand it and try my best.

-Science-
This is my favourite subject ever! We did some research and experiments and I could tell you, Science is so fun! You do not need to think so much like Maths, not so hard as Chinese because it's in English and not strict in grammar.

The rest of the other subject classes are normal. Well the one I just typed out was normal too.

*Note that this is not arranged by time, only by subjects and some which are not stated may be the reason that I have forgotten

The First week of school

I was able to return to Singapore on January 3rd 2009. I disliked riding planes especially budget airlines as they are usually boring and you need to sit there for 3 hours which I did not like. My baby sister was throwing a tantrum on the plane, lucky I wasn't sitting next to her. All I could do there is to sit on my seat and tried to sleep but sleeping in a position where you need to sit upright was not a thing I'm used to sleep. So all I could do there is to wait patiently for the plane to land. I drank a cup of coffee sold by the air stewardess. I actually changed my mind about being an air stewardess as I thought I could travel around the world but I'm getting 'airsick' during planes and being bored.



Soon as the plane landed, we took our luggage and head back to our house. I was restless. The plane landed at the time 1am , Jan 4 2010. My mother gave me a late Christmas present as I wasn't able to celebrate Christmas with her for work reasons. the present was so small while the rest of my sister's presents are big. But that didn't matter, I opened it up and found that it was actually a Manga and not just any Manga but it was my favourite anime called Detective Conan and she bought for me 3 books and one of them was a Movie Special! Well, I know that when it comes to giving and receiving, it doesn't matter the price, it's the thought that counts.



I was able to sleep before coming to school. My mother advised me not to go yet but I wanted to go to first day of school badly while my sister was tired and decided to sleep for the day.



There was of course assembly and time to know about the class and your form teacher. I bit my lip hard. I wanted my form teacher this year to be Mdm Yeo as she was my last year's form teacher and maybe the best teacher and my schoolmates agrees with me too. I actually saw Meteor Shower in December 14, 2009. There were about 40 shooting stars that night and I probably spotted about 30 of them. One of my wish was that Mdm Yeo will be my form teacher next year 2010 and it really came true! Some people say that when you wish upon a star, your wish will come true.

Then when Mdm Yeo told us to introduce ourselves infront of the class for at least 60 seconds. I was like "Oh no, not introducing to yourself to the WHOLE class" I took long on what should I write down. Then the next period was either Maths or Social Studies. Then Mr Oh was my Social studies teacher again.

No one knew my Chinese Class. Luckily, a Chinese teacher which many Chinese students called 'Ding Lao Shi' (I don't know her English name, Sorry) She brought me to 6 Endurance and she switched on the computer but the computer was slow and it took minutes till she found my name and told me to go to 6 GR. I thanked her for helping me and headed to the class. I was about to tell the Chinese Teacher the reason why I was late in her class when she asked me for my name. I took my seat and she gave an introduction in the class, the rules and the goal for our PSLE. I smiled to my friends as I walk past them.

There was soon this introduction and some were good at introducing themsleves. Soon, it was my turn to introduce myself. It was honestly not the best introduction, not even close. I had elaborated my sentences and I even told them that my favourite colour is Gray, which was the first time I had told a lot of people about it. To me, Gray is a simple, dull colour and it doesn't represent any emotion or significance, unlike the others, red could represent luck, anger, love or yellow could simply represent happiness. But Gray isn't. When you look at it you could feel nothing. -no worries or thinking. It makes myslef very calm. The first day soon ended. I've done the things that I have to do when I come home.

-The Next Day- (Tuesday, 5 January 2010)
The 2nd day started and we had PE then music. My PE teacher is Mr Tan and my music teacher is Mrs Siat. PE was just an introduction and we played this game called 'One Leg' and in music, we learnt about the Singapore National Anthem, Majulah Singapura and Mrs Siat told us to sing the lyrics properly and clearly.

I also found out that my Maths Class was still in Courage and my maths teacher is Mdm Sng. Maths class was again, just an introduction.Most of my friend are in Maths Class)I still did not know my science class on that day.

-Wednesday, 6 January 2010-
This was the day I knew my Science Class. Then again, my Science Class was still in 6Courage and my Science class teacher was Mdm Yeo. Most of my friend who are not in my form class are in my Science Class. I also learnt basic algebra about the four operations in algebra. While the rest I had completely forgot! Well, I had a good chat with my close friend, Jasmine Oh on the way back home. I mostly went home alone which feels kind of lonely but I got use to it but I would really love to have a good chat with my close friends.

-Thursday, 7 january 2010-
There was nothing really new about this day or I had honestly forgot. But after school, my firend, Jasmine Oh told me that she had forgotten her house key and both of her parent are working and they will not come back till evening. She had no close neighbours and she was thinking about where to go after her Higher Mother Tounge. So I had invited her to my house so that she could stay there till her parents return. Both of us did our Science Homework given by Mdm Yeo.

-Friday, 8 January 2010-
At last there was something new in that day. We had Health education with Mdm Sabiah and the lesson was funny as Mdm Sabiah always have jokes that could make us laugh.

This was the end of the first week of school. Some of them I might have forgotten but the first week of school was smooth and I am looking forward for next week.

About me

The first thing that I want to tell you that I'm actually shy when it comes to introducing myself and even when it comes to taking pictures. Well, I hope that I could express myself out properly.


My name is Remee and my form class is 6Courage. My hobby is paper folding. My favourite colour is gray.

The Blue Moon and The New Year

Well, on December 31st 2009, I waited for the new year to come. But before that, I saw in Yahoo! that there will be a Blue Moon on New Year's eve. The Blue moon is the "extra" full moon in years that have 13 full moons.
I went to the rooftop at the time 7pm (I was in Phillipines by then, not in Singapore, so there's a rooftop) I saw the moon which was at the side of the sky (not yet at the highest). It was so bright and the moon was unusually blue. But the blue moon I just saw was said to be "rear" becuase the blue moon appeared on the New Year's eve which the last time it happened was in 1990 and the next time it was predicted to happen will be on 2028, which will be every 19 years. Imagine how old you are when you see the next blue moon in New Year's eve. My great-aunt who believed in luck told everyone to got to the rooftop and have a look because she simply believed that the blue moon in New Year's eve will be lucky as it is only on every 19 years and it was on New Year's eve, so she believed it will bring luck to us all around the Year 2010. The wikipedia also stated at the Blue Moon was with a partial Lunar Eclipse (Not full).

At the stroke of midnight, we went to the rooftop again and see the fireworks in different directions. By midnight, the Blue Moon is at the highest and I noticed that the sky was bright as if the Blue Moon was the light. The sky was beautiful. I thought about how lucky was I to see The Blue Moon and see the Geminid Meteor Showers (it was somewhat about 40 shooting stars then I could wish on it) on the same month and Year and maybe I would like to see a blocked sun or a blood moon (meaning Solar eclipse and Lunar Eclipse respectively)

The next time I would want to see the Blue Moon on New Year's eve might be on 2028 when I'm about 31 years old. As I watched everyone celebrating the New Year, I told myself "this year, when the clock strikes 12, Year 2010 will appear and so is the Blue Moon at the sky at the highest. Now, I'm desperately searching for eclipse visible in Singapore. I really hope it I could see an eclipse.

I had two questions to ask:
1) Did you saw the Blue Moon?
2) Did you ever noticed that I'm interested about astrology? (seeing the blue moon, shooting star, eclipse etc.)

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