9th week of school

Ok, first thing I want to shout: YAY!!!!!!!!!

Note: Whoever is reading my blog right now, I can get emotional and you will think it feels weird but this is the only way I can express it out without words and please do not ever

mention this in the real world (i meant like talking to me and saying "hey I read your blog" *Sounds weird right?*

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Class test is over, so this is the time I am typing on my blog again.



This week was so stressful.



Monday, it was Mother Tongue class test. My brains were RACKED! Mother Tongue was my weakest subject and I was REALLY hoping that I could pass this exam or else I'll be so disappointed in myself! I had put in a lot of effort to pass this exam, just pass this exam and I will really be happy. Sadly, on Friday, I did NOT pass!!!!!!! I fail by 5 marks! Meaning that I only have 40 out of 90! Also, what really pisses me off was my classmate(not telling who), was being arrogant that he had high marks and he even told me that if I took the Higher Chinese I would fail more. Instead of saying that, he could just say "better luck next time". I really hate it when people heard that someone scored a low score and instead of making them feel better, they will say things that will make things worse! I know that I am skeptical of passing my Chinese. Thankfully, some of my classmates could understand my situation and they help me feel better. "A good friend and a true one should first understand and care for their friend and that would make you one." - Remee Rose
I actually made that quote by myself. To understand one's problems is about to put yourself in their shoes.

Back to my point, I knew that I would do bad but thanks to my friends, they made me feel that there would always be a next time that I am able to score high for my Chinese. And I will make that dream come true.


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Tuesday, it was English class test and it was HARD! I always get 50-70 out of 95 for English, I can't believe it! Talking about shame and disappointment on my face! But we shall see. To me, I am a complete idiot at English, I've always be so blur in grammar and vocabulary. To me, in English, is about understanding deep English like Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet. Much to say more like literature.

I think that SEL is basically about literature as there needs to be an understanding about some words like perseverance, what is the true meaning of it? Talking about SEL, our group won 50 points because we had presented the best explanation of perseverance. To be honest, our presentation, we actually refer ed it to a song. The song is The Climb by Miley Cyrus. Mdm Yeo, if you are reading this right now, I would just want you to know that this is the song I want to sing in the bus bay.



The song is really meaningful and it is more like explanation the real meaning of perseverance. Right now, I'm reading Sherlock Holmes and it is quite hard to read because the author wrote it in like the 19th century so, the English is very deep. But I try my best to understand it and I admit that the cases were brilliant. I heard from my mother that Shakesphere's Romeo and Juliet is very hard to read that you will be annoyed. I feel like reading that book. ^.^

I only scored 60.5 out of 95. That's lame. That was only a B. I do not know the reason why I just could not get high marks like Challenge does. To be honest, I am not really outstanding in academics, so, I would try the harder way. Besides being acadmically outstanding, character is also important.
Many people would want to be arrogant just because that their marks are outstanding, but their character is pathetic. To me, being smart is not everything. It is the effort, perseverance and pride you put in your work. Also, having good grades would not make you a 100% genius. You are only about 90% . You need character especially in leadership and desicions, as well as understanding. If you do not understand then you would not be able to do things well.
I would like to congratulate my friends who scored very high for class test.

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Wednesday was Maths. To be honest, I feel like cursing under my breath because of Paper 1 that only has 50 minutes to complete the whole paper. I was like OH NO, I have insufficient time to do paper 1! So, Paper 2 , I need to get a high mark for that..........



Honestly, I feel like breaking down and cry. I feel guilty for some unknown reason. I do not even have the mood to smile. But I would take in as a lesson. We all have to learn from mistakes. Nobody's perfect. There is only one thing we are perfect at. And that 'one thing' we are perfect at is because we practise it. A person who is perfect had never tried anything new or learnt any lesson. (Am I being way too literal here?)

Those are just my thoughts. Just as I predicted, I only had a B. Again. I am sick of this and yet it made me want to study more. But I feel so happy for several of my classmates that scored a good mark. It made me smile. But yet, it was a bitter smile. I smiled for them because they are happy, even though I was disappointed.
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Science, I do not have enough time to check my work due to insufficient time management. But I feel satisfied. For some unknown reason, Science is the only subject that I felt I belong to. I would always learn something each time I took Science. I am really a logical person. I would always know the good things and cruel things in this world.

So, as I was saying, I would not feel as bad as the other subjects. I got 50 out of 60 for booklet A. Even though I would not get an A*, I just want an A and I will be satisfied.
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Side Stories:
This may not be relevant to school, but it is relevant for life.

I listened to this song, "Innocence" by Avril Lavigne. And I had to agree with the lyrics of the song. Many people would like pop songs but I like slow songs that have meaningful lyrics in it. Or else, there would be no meaning. A song is like a poem with a rhythm that tells a story. A song tells a story through music.

So, Innocence has two meanings:
1) A person who is innocent
2) A lack experience of the world and the evil things in it.

I would assume that it was the second meaning. Most of my schoolmates are innocence. They are not really aware of the evil things that life has and carries on with a happy smile having happy moments. I can't help but smile.

I do not know whether I am insane but, I do understand problems and conflicts despite my age. I should be innocence like my friends. But it also came handy whenever my friend has problems. Whoever is reading this, I have a tip if you have problems:
Talk to a true friend who is understanding and not innocence. They would understand your problems better.

Many people would try to find their true happiness or the meaning of it. To my point of view, if you have everything, you would feel like you have nothing. But when you have nothing and yet, you feel that you have everything you need.

What I really meant that if you are wealthy but sick and alone. You do not have happiness in you. You feel that you would give up your fortune just for some little things. The "little things" in life makes life great. Those "little things" are family members, true friends, health and most of all, happiness. Even if you are not wealthy, but have these "little things" , you feel satisfied with it. The happiness your heart is feeling is beautiful that makes you want to cry.

You see? Even unperfect things made your life so happy. If you have bad moments, just think of the little things you have in your life and you will think that you are lucky and you do not need fortune or any other things that looks nescesarry to makes you satisfied but in the end, when you sulk about not getting these things, think about the things you have and treasure them. You will smile about it. The things you have must be treasured. After your thought, you will think that the things you do not have are unnescessary to you as you already have everything. And that is true happiness.

Sometimes, I would like to wish that I was innocence; not knowing about cruel things. Many of my classmates could not read my reactions displayed on my face. I do not know the reasons why. They would always ask me "Why do you look so sad?" or "Why do you look so glum?" or "Why do you look so pissed?". I do appreciate their concern. But that was my normal face. That was because I'm not smiling! That's all..........

Anyways, since I scored really low, I asked my mother to sign me up for tuition classes.