Too tired of studying to live

Throughout the year, I'm so stressed. It's like I just study to live.... It's because I really want to get sraight A's for exams which I never had before...

Today, I was sent home early because I was having a serious headache. At first, I didn't really want to tell a teacher because I thought that I could bare with it for the whole day. But I couldn't, it was really painful and I might faint any moment. So after half a day, I couldn't withstand about the aching pain in my mind that I told Mdm Yeo. Right now, I had a good rest and I feel better.

Actually, I want to revise Science by drawing concept maps but quite a number of my friends said "no". They said "Stop torturing yourself, today, sleep like a pig. RELAX!!!"

At first, I was doubtful. I seriously wanted not to waste precious time any longer and revise. To tell you the truth, I am beginning to love studying. I may be reluctant studying at first, but once I sat on my chair, nothing could stop me from studying.

I actually don't have any tuitions except for Chinese. So my mother just bought assesment books for me to rely on. In fact, I find the books she had bought me are really useful. Though nobody tells me to do any assesment books, I would make a to-do-list and a timetable.

As for Monday, I would revise Chinese; Tuesdays: English; Wednesdays: Math; Thursdays: Science. And as for Fridays: Relax, do homework, extra study etc. Saturdays: Chinese Tuition and Music School. Sundays: (Random)

So that's my aim. Of course I wouldn't want to be a nerd and just stay at my desk revising, I'm concious about health too. I try to spare some time for taking a walk and all that. But I don't think that I could keep up with PSLE. I mean, I never had straight A's before. I'm skeptical that I would be able to get straight A's. I'm so worried...

So, I think that's the main reason I had a headache. But after drinking milk tea and taking a nap, I'm fine. I actually wanted to to revise but I could that my brain is heavy whenever I focuse into some school stuff.

I do wonder, how come some students are so relaxed (not revising at all) and still get straight A's?? Oh I feel like killing them!!! I mean, how do they even do that??? I feel like interrogating them...

Anyway, my younger sister is the opposite of me. She doesn't really revise much and she relaxed... She was actually the one who stopped me from revising Science just now and I did listened to her. *Maybe I'll revise Science tomorrow*

Geez, I'm so stubborn... People told me to relax but I'm like : "I NEED PEACE, JUST LEAVE MY BOOKS AND ME ALONE!!" *LOLZ*

But they're right, I do need to relax sometimes or I'll be suffering from headache again. Not only that, also backpain and lack of concentration. So guys (or girls), don't be like me, RELAX!!

*Note that I'm sooooo not a nerd!!! I just want to sacrifice for this crucial year because I know that this whole bloody war would be over after PSLE. The first thing I'm going to do is: CHEER. "PSLE IS OVER!!YAY!!"

Anyway, if I were to get straight A's in PSLE, I swear that I would do any dare that my friends would ask me. (Just don't tell me to jump off the building or anything like that)

Other than that, do you notice that today's post wasn't so emo and mature??

(Wait, so my post is a little crazy, maybe I'll go back to my own style:)
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(Original syle)

As the days past, I grew more restless than ever, like a lost soul with an unfinished buisness on Earth. I even had a painstaking headache in the morning of school. At first, I wanted to bear with it for a moment but soon, I couldn't withstand the pain in my mind. I felt as if my brain was as the weigh of an elephant. I feared that my vision would become blur and fade into the darkness. Or even worse, faint.

Realizing the fact that I was being oblivious to my health, I simply knew the reason. The desire of having straight A's printed on my PSLE results. The vision that I had been imagining ever since the beginning of this whole crucial year. I never had such marks written on my exam results, never.

But though I never had those marks, it doesn't mean the never means "never for enterinity". This is present for heaven's sake. Nobody knows the future, it depends on every individuals of our decisions. So be carefull of your decision as it might determine the future, like a domino effect. Once a domino standing had fallen, the other one next to it will fall and the other, till the very last one. So choose descision with caution, as they might alter the future.

Sometimes, our futures intertwine with one another, that would make a huge difference: Meeting someone which was a stranger, then knowing one another. That's fate.

I just had to sacrifice something in order to achieve what I desire as it would never come twice. There are times I wonder, how do other people manage to get straight A's without studying at all?? That bothers me so much.

I was actually stubborn enough and wanted to revise Science. But thanks to my sister, she ceased me from doing so...

Instead, I took a nap and drank some milk tea in order to stay "alive". The though of PSLE is hard for me to get rid of it, endlessly worrying about it.

But I know that one day, this whole bloody war would be over. And I'll survive this. I swear under my breath that if I would get straight A's for my PSLE results, I would take any dare that my friends would ask me, unless their asking me to commit suicide.
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A/N: So, which version do you like better? The first or second one?? Please tell me your opinions!!!