Exam week

It was a very stressful week. Finally, I had managed to overcome it.

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-Science-



I got a low A for my Science exam. An A, but still dissapointing.



The truth is, I never had time to check my Science paper throughly, especially Booklet A. It was such a waste.



Never mind about it, no matter how regretful I am, nothing would happen. At least I had gotten an A would be enough.



It is just that I was so busy preparing, studying for the Science topics. I even stayed up late just to cover all the topics completely. However, life is full of surprises, some are pleasant some are just not. That what just happened. I was so busy focusing on that but not time management.



However , I am not going to cry over this. It's like crying over spilt milk. What's done is done, I cannot change anything else like what most people do. They complain. I do not know why but most people would complain every single imperfect thing in their life. They blame on others, why not blame themselves?



I blame myself for not doing well in my Science Exam but that does not mean it's the end of the world. There is still things that are far more difficult challenges for me to overcome. Besides, there is still English, Maths and Mother Tounge. So, build a bridge and get over it, unless you want to drown with regret and blame. -Remee



Maybe, no, I WILL get a high A for my PSLE Science Exam.

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-English-





It was fine, I think. However, I would mostly get 50 over 95 for my English. I hope I would get more than that. Mostly, I would get 50 for my Practise Paper English but it seems to be improving.



I had 49 for Paper 3 but I scored 70 when I did it the second time. I was able to score a 75 for one of the recent papers and 69 on the other. I was so jubilant that my English marks were improving. I think that since English is not a subject with new topics, we should keep practising Practise Papers, Oral Exam , Continuous Writing and Situational Writing.



I just really wanted my English to be 65+ or else, doing all these Practise Papers would be futile.



The word "futile" is what I fear about. Things just don't go the same way as what you expected. There would always be unpredictable twists in life. When it comes to exams, studying very hard, doing revision, then when it comes to exams, you'll get low marks and sometimes, it would be so dissapointing because the marks are not worthwhile, and the last thing thing you will think about is : "I had been working very hard but then every effort I had put in was futile." or "What could I have done then?"



I just wanted something worthwhile for my English. Now, I am anxiously waiting for the results.



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- Maths-



It was SO TOUGH. Paper 1 was so easy but then Paper 2 was so TOUGH. I did not know most of the questions. I did not even want to look at the questions ever again. I was racking my brains to get the answers and I knew that at least 20 marks would just fly. I did not even get to finish the paper properly.

I am skeptical that I would get an A for this, maybe I would get a C. Until now, I do not know why many people love Maths. People say that it is "easy" and "no-need-to-memorise-anything" subject.

Unlike me, I would rather memorise the whole concepts and apply it to my exam papers than using my brain to answer a question correctly. Maths is something like that. You work out the sums and you get it correctly. I do not like answering Maths questions. It's not that I detest it, just that my brain just aches when there is a difficuly Maths question. Seriously, I do cry when I just don't get the questions. What would happen during PSLE Maths? Would there be such challenging questions?

Judging by the number of difficult questions, my schoolmate's compliments about the paper and my thoughts, I am prepared if I would get really low marks for this. My marks are simply predictable.

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-Mother Tounge-

Great, it's my weakest subject of all. If I was not given extra time, I would not be able to finish the paper. I could still remember clearly while I was doing the paper, my hands were sweating, I do not know what I was writing.

I actually had failed this paper multiple times. It is rare for me to pass this paper. Unlike my Chinese schoolmates, I do not really answer the questions straight away. I need time to translate the Chinese words to English or Tagalog then to Chinese again in my thoughts to understand.

I was really anxious that time. I do not really understand the two passagesin Booklet B.

The first one was about mice but then a cat came and thus they held a meeting and one of the mouse suggested to put a bell on the cat so that they would know if the cat is coming but then none of them has the courage to put the bell on the cat. (I think that was the story)

The second one was about how special the role of our parents in our life. It tells us about our parents going through hardships. (I think so)

So if I was 100% wong about these passage, then I would completely fail. I was quite glad that my Chinese teacher taught us how to do well in Composition, Oral Exam, Listening Compre and Paper 2. She told the whole class that most of us did well for the components. She even told me that so far, I have been doing well for the component marks, not really a high mark but roughly the passing mark. Therefore, even a pass in my Paper 2, I would be satisfied as that is my achievement.

I know that a passing mark is just a passing mark, but to me, I had reached my goal. It is my main goal after roughly 5 years. If I would pass, I would jump for joy and sing "hallejuah" .

I remember that the sweetest victory is when you achieve something after all the hard work. Therefore, passing this paper would be the sweetest victory. It isn't really sweet when you would always get high marks.

Sometimes, imperfect things makes our lives great. If a person had never made a mistake before, that person had never tried anything new. We learn from our mistakes and refrain from doing it again. That's how our character strenghtens. If your life is such luxurious and perfect, then you can't face such hardships when your life is a wreck. When that time comes, you'll be the weakest.

Obstacles may make our lives challenging but it also taught us how to have a strong, good character along the way. Having a blissful life when you're born makes you have an ugly character, such as "spoilt brats". Having a life with challenges makes your life interesting and your strength is stronger than "spoilt brats", not physically, but mentally and emotionally.

So, don't complain if your life is a wreck. Once you had finished a challenge, another one will come to you life, sooner or later. As a student, obstacles to me are my exams, especially PSLE. Sometimes, obstacles may not be accomplished the first try, if the first attempt fails, try again. If the next attempt fails, try again. Again and again till you get it.

Once you had, then you'll feel good about it. Then you wait for another one. That's how you overcome your obstacles in your life because perfection does not exist.

Moreover, it isn't always what you achieve in challenges, it is how you overcome it. So, if I would get a pass for my PSLE Chinese Paper, then I know that I had achieved my goal, how I overcame it and I will be waiting for the next.

Right now, I am waiting for my results and see how far I am at.
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Actually, I am not as smart as my schoolmates. I truly admire their ability of getting the understading the concepts and getting it right consecutively. But for me, I have to work hard before I would get such high marks.

Most of my classmates have confidence that their PSLE marks would be high. I'm not. I am very pessimistic when it comes to exams. I am skeptical that my grades would be high. But that is how I get myself to work hard for my exams.

If I would be so confident about my marks, then I am not facing reality. Creating a target and achieving it are very different. People confuse this too much. Target is about visualizing you achievement before conquering your obstacles. Achievement is about achieving your goal.

Most people would dream when creating their tragets such as getting 100%. I don't. creating a target must be real, but high and achieving. What I meant by high isn't always about getting an A*. Each people have their own views and points. A "C" to someone might be very low but to others, it is already high. Targets must not be over the achievement because the more you target for something very high, the more dissapointing you are.

In my view, a high A for my best subject, A's for my two average subject and a passing mark for my weakest subject. Having fear, being pessimistic and skeptical abotu your exams isn't always that bad. It makes you work hard towards your goal rather than being optimistic and over-confident. You'll only achieve dissapointment.

So, make sure that your target is not beyond reality. Set your target, overcome the obstacle, achieve your goal, feel the victory, let go of it and wait for the next one.