After PSLE

Finally, PSLE's over. People say that the papers were easy, but I would never underestimate test papers.





Anyway, what's done is done, I cannot change the past.



After PSLE, I am basically focusing on my JEP. I am content of the group I have because everyone are capable thus, contributes a lot to our project.



To be honest, this project might be quite stressful, but, I am able to benefit knowledge that a normal education would have ever taught. However, problems are still arising, endlessly. If you had noticed, some of my close friends are now distant. Well, I'll be fine since I can be independant. I am able to make new friends and I still have my best friend anyway.

On the other hand, I am still figuring which secondary school I want to got to. It all depends on my PSLE score, right? Well, I had already chose 20 schools which I think is promising. I looked at the PSLE rages and I categorised it, so that I would alrady have 6 schools to choose when I get my score.

Of all the 20 schools, they are in the red line (not further than Choa Chu Kang and Orchard), have some CCAs that I am interested in and some even had affliated JC schools. Well, as far as I'm concern, my mother wants me to go to a Catholic school so that I can be more religious. Perhaps there are a lot of influences when it comes to high school. I am aware of that. Of course, I'll never lose my sanity or jeopardise my life.

As a pessimist, I would really like to plan every year so that everything runs smoothly. After all, goals can never be achieved unless one dreams of it, right?

Firstly, whatever PSLE marks I get and whichever school I go to, it doesn't really matter. Yes, there will be disadvantages and advantages depending on the secondary school I go to. However, it really depends on the individual itself.

Therefore, the environment of my studying school would not affect me. I'll just be concentrating on my goals. I had always dream of being the top even if it is difficult. Gradually, I will do well in my studies because if my studies would drop, it is really hard to get back up again. In fact, it takes time. For me, my studies did drop drastically when I was in Primary 3. It took me 3 years to resume back again. I'll just try to level up my standards.

I am quite excited that we are having more subjects, especially English Literature. I really liked reading Romeo and Juliet. It teaches me about poetry (I love reading classics). There will be also 3 subjects of Science, which I think will be great.

I am not really sure about Mother Tongue and 3rd Languages but I'll be able to cope with it. I heard that there are some schools that has 3rd languages for them, but I prefer European langauges. If it is really compulsory, perhaps I'll take Spanish since I find it easy to speak and the language is quite similar to Tagalog.

I hope that Maths will be more understanding and I wish to excel in it. There is geography and history. I think it'll be interesting but these new subjects seems to be tough. I do not really know the difficulty level of these subjects but as long as I have patience, I'll be able to cope with it.

Thirdly, it is my CCA. I am planning to get back on music but I still had a nightmare during my last music CCA. I was in the symphonic band and its a killer. We had to practise 4h a week and the teacher did not give any constructive criticisms. I as really young at that time and it seems that everyone was out to get me. However, I was able to cope with it because of my love for music. Hearing classic music can be soothing. You can move along with the rhythm and your heart can feel with the singing melody. It seemed that your soul was lost in the song.

Instead of getting back at performing arts, perhaps I'll take sports. Anyway, as long as the CCA was enjoying for me, it won't be a huge problem.

Lastly, it is the people around me. I absolutely despise betrayal and lies. in fact, I'd rather have 1 true friend than having many fake friends. I hate hypocrates who appears to adore you but talks behind your back. I also detest people who uses individuals to get what they desire, for example, fame. Even if being a friend with someone who is considered "cool" and you'll become "cool" too, it is not worth it.

I had always regard coolness like an ice. Being cool can be nice, everyone appears to love you, have a good reputation and be the most popular student in the school. However, it will melt soon. People will neglect you and say "You're so last year" while walking way.

Perhaps it is a waste of time being cool. Some people are naturally cool, which is, people regard them as "cool" without even having the intention. But some, they have to be so mean, insensitive and other imprudent things in order to be extraordinary.

To me, it's a piece of junk. The most thing that makes people "cool" is getting other's attention by telling some jokes. Well, I believe that the purpose of having a good sense of humour is to make your love ones laugh.

Another thing is, they are people who wears those masks. I would like to say is to tear it and show you real character to everyone. Be truthful and humble. Not everyone will like you but those who are faithful and loyal to you will accept you. Don't you think it'll be better?

Friendship is not always about hanging out, spending the good times together, being cool or gossiping. It is about the love for the people who are not your kinsman. It is about sharing the bad times together, lending an ear to listen to their problem and a shoulder to cry on.

That is one of the reason why I find it difficult to make friends because I'm not just looking for a friend but a real one. I seriously prefer someone who is ordinary but kind and concern to other than a cool and insensitive person.

And whenever someone lies or talks behind my back, I'll never trust them again. Even if they apologise, I forgive them. But, is their apology sincere of my feelings? Or is it just because karma turned against you? That is why my trust to others are always broken. Unless they change for the better.


Anyway, I am concentrated on the JEP project right now. I hope that my class wins.